Wednesday, December 28, 2005


One dozen chocolate-dipped GIGANTIC (and I mean freaking huge!) strawberries showed up at our door today, courtesy of my sister- and brother-in-law. What's the occasion, you ask? Well, Friday is our 10th anniversary, and that was their gift to us. Very, very sweet. :) Damned yummy too - and did I mention huge?? Thanks Ed and Mary Lynn! Want your own box of treats delivered to your door? Check out Edible Arrangements and drool away...

Oh! And one more thing.....I wish I'd found this for you all before Christmas, but oh it's just as jolly now... pimp my nutcracker Thank you :)

Saturday, December 24, 2005

a child is born

December 24, 1997 - for unto us a child is born...

It's amazing the stuff that goes through your head when you're lying in hospital about to give birth. And not the regular sort of birth, with the pain and the yelling - an emergency birth, where the medical staff tell you that after having laboured for a couple of hours, that baby needs to come out - now - or else. I don't like to think about the "or else". But I told them at the time that they could pull him out of my nose if that's what it would take to get him out safely. Glad they didn't lol.

And so, at 3:37pm, Charles Hamilton made his appearance - a gorgeous little boy (It's a boy, Mrs. Walker, it's a boy...yep, more of the stuff going through the mind of a drugged up pregnant woman...) with a full head of dark brown hair. And no crying he made. I don't make this stuff up, he really didn't cry at all. But he was 7lbs 2oz of the most beautiful baby boy I had ever seen. And today he is the most beautiful 8-year old boy I've ever seen. He truly is a most amazing child with a unique outlook on the world and on life in general. His sensitivity and naivete, his sense of humour, his ability to "get" jokes that only adults with world experience are supposed to get - and so much more - these are the things that I find so fascinating about him. He is my baby boy. But he hates when I say that. :)

Happy Birthday Charles, my shining star.

And Merry Christmas everyone. :)

Sunday, December 18, 2005


Okay, I've known this for years but it's cool to see it on McSweeney's recommends:

The Who's "Boris the Spider" as a children's song
You can kick "Free to Be You and Me" to the curb. "Boris the Spider"? That's the gig. Fun deep bass, catchy refrain—the kids go nuts with it.

The best part is the mention of "Free to Be You and Me" cos that whole thing with Marlo Thomas kinda creeped me out in about grade 2...especially the Mel Brooks/baby boy voice thingy....*shivers*

Saturday, December 10, 2005


I know I'm a little late with this, but it's been one of those weeks. I also find it difficult to collect my thoughts on the actual anniversary dates of emotional events - probably because I am so involved in the remembering - and it's nearly impossible to think clearly enough to write coherently. John Lennon's death affected me so deeply 25 years ago, and every year since. And every year I'm taken back to that morning when my alarm clock radio switched on and the first words I heard spoken were "John Lennon shot dead". :( Beyond sad. There were some amazing tributes to John's life and music this year; the CBC has some interesting stories, photos and video footage from the Montreal bed-in, in 1969. But one of the best musical tributes I heard was on CFMU. I'm assuming it was Emmett's show because that's when we were listening (as we were out driving from store to store, mall to mall doing some Christmas shopping) but as I didn't hear the whole Lennon tribute, and I never did hear the host speak, I can't say for sure. So hey Emmett, if you're reading, let me know! ;) Ah yes, doesn't everyone make a point of reading my blog on a daily basis?!? Uh huh.

I think that's it for tonight. :)

Friday, December 02, 2005


It's December! I'm a little freaked out - my time management skills are just NOT up to par it seems. It's the working fulltime thing, I know it. The weeks just fly, and then it's the weekend and we inch ever closer to the BIG DAY. Ah but it's fun, and the holiday season is great. Parties, visiting, festivity...never easy without Herb though, I have to admit. You do what you have to, life goes on - cliche - but true enough. Christmas will never be the same, but we still get the boxing nun out for old time's sake, but I'm a little bummed that dad's not around to see this offering from the world of religious toys!

And speaking of religious paraphenalia (is that what you call it, or is there a more reverent word for that stuff? hmmmm...) I recently found this site via Armchair News (one of the only personal blogs I read because it's really, really one else quotes McSweeney's, and I could go on about that site again, but I won't...for now) But anyway...goingjesus has about the most hilarious collection of stuff on the net - seriously - and just in time for the holidays, you must check out "Angels We Have Heard Are High" and "Cavalcade of Bad Nativities". Fa la la la la! Oh! And I nearly forgot the best part of the site (ok well the marshmallow holy family is *almost* the best part) but it's the t-shirts that REALLY are cool! WTFWJD? Oh it's too perfect!!!

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

letting go...

So Charles walked to karate all by himself last week. Alone. Without me. Max and I had walked him about half way there earlier in the week, and that was tough. Then he announced the next time that he was ready to go on his own. And he is. But it's still hard to watch your little boy head out into the dusk all on his own. I was so proud of him, but there is always that nagging in the back of your head, all the "what ifs?" It's important though, I think, to let go. The letting go is hard, harder than I ever imagined, but it's SO necessary - the assertion of independence, of allowing your children to grow, to find themselves and be their own person is absolutely essential. But I don't have to like it.... ;)

And some letting go of another sort tonight too - I listened to Mary Lou Finlay's last broadcast of As it Happens, and honestly I have to say, I got a little choked up. I like that show - it's quirky but informative, often deeply emotional and always loads of fun. Mary Lou and Barbara are pretty amazing broadcasters, and I also liked Mary Lou on Live it Up - remember that show?!? Also quirky and fun - from CTV - go figure. The same people who brought you The Trouble with Tracy and Mad Dash lol. Check out the cool & swinging theme song and the story behind it! Probably my favourite theme song ever - although Definition's was mighty fine too. Check out Soul Bossa Nova on this album (all of which looks amazing and might need to be downloaded!)

Thursday, November 24, 2005

holiday envy

How can you not love a holiday that happens on a Thursday, that gives you two full days off work leading up to the weekend??? I don't know why we can adopt pretty much every other thing America decides to direct at us, but for some stupid reason, we have to have our own Thanksgiving in October - on a Monday. *sigh* Of course, I can't complain too loudly, as I've been off the past two days anyway. Oh yes, I was so smug and proud of myself that I didn't get that nasty bug that attacked my three boys. Oh yes. And then Tuesday night, didn't I spend it wrapped around the toilet. Ah yes. That'll learn me. Still not feeling so hot, but INDY! [confused, well read on...]

A shout out to all you IMers/Monty Python fans out there (and I know you're out there) ricklibrarian offers the help you've been wanting!! OMG I just love this. I like Rick's blog too, as he offers up some interesting stuff. Will definitely be adding him to my ever-growing list of daily must-reads.

ANFSCD..... [haha couldn't resist...]

Things are looking up at the ol' plant for all concerned as Stelco reaches a restructuring agreement Let's have a collective *whew* shall we? And I'd like to say that the picture that accompanies that story was taken last January. I'd like to...but I'm sure it was a shot from today because there is a lot more snow than is REALLY necessary at the end of November - brrrr!!!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

listening to you, I get the music...

I've just spent the last little while watching The Who Live in Boston. This is one of my favourite Who DVDs at the present time for many reasons, not the least of which is that this is the tour where I got to see them live for the very first time. I won't go into the heartbreak of not having been able to see them in 1982 (still bitter lol) because I truly believe that this 2002 tour was the start of something big for me, as unlikely as it sounds. And although I *wish* there had been more live Who for me in the past, I also believe that there is a reason I saw them 3 years ago, and that if I was ever meant to have a life-altering event, this was it. It's hard to explain the way my life has changed, the way the path I'm on has evolved since that night, but it has. And I am so very grateful for the relationships that have resulted, and for the turn my life has taken. And I know that there are those that would scoff at the very idea of a rock concert changing a person's life. And that's fine. I know what I know and I'm happy with that. For those of you who scoff, I wish for you to find that event which will change your life as you know it and set you on your true path. For those of you who *get* what I'm talking about, thank you. I know for sure that there are at least two who can share this experience, who understand and know exactly what I'm talking about; and this is the reason I watched this concert tonight. It just seemed so right.

So my entire family is sick. :( All three boys are in rough shape and I'm in complete shock that this time I've emerged unscathed. Well, great of course now that I've said that I'm sure I'll be puking my guts out all night lol. I mean when enough people throw up on you, all you can do is wave the white flag and say "enough already I give" and just wait for the bug to get inside you and turn nasty. But actually....I think I'm good. Whew. BIG whew.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

I get it...

I finally get it. It, is yoga. I've practised yoga for nearly 5 years now, with Maureen, on and off. And although I probably technically 'got it' years ago, tonight seemed particularly perfect. I'm constantly amazed not only at what my body can do, but also of what my mind is capable of doing - or not doing - as is warranted during the 90 minute session.

Some other things to make me smile this week:

The Who get inducted into the UK Music Hall of Fame (ok the story sucks because it barely mentions them, but it's all I can find at the mo)

Dennis Quaid gets a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.....mmmmm....Dennis Quaid...

And last but not least, Leonard Cohen gets inducted into the Canadian Songwriters Hall of Fame - wha'?? you didn't know we had one?? lol To celebrate, I offer this from McSweeney's - still the funniest place on the web!
Leonard Cohen's Seven Immutable Laws of Business

Can I be involved with #3? Please?

Monday, November 14, 2005

monday, monday...

It's funny that it's nearly a week since I've posted. I was on quite the roll there for awhile, wasn't I? Well last week was a bit more hectic than most, and now I'm coming down after a fun-filled weekend. Weekends with friends are just SO great, but then sometimes when they're over, I get the pouts because I miss my friend (which makes me sound like Mercer Mayer's Little Critter "my friend is special") I'll get over it. :)

In other blogging news, my big plan to have a blog at work has been approved! I'm pretty excited, and I'm hoping to have it in place by Christmas. There are precious few corporate library blogs out there, so I'm excited to be an innovator. I really like the Industrial Librarian and there are a couple of others, but corporate libraries seem underrepresented to me. They could be intranet-based of course, depending on the company's web presence and all, but I think a public blog would be good for me. Especially since Stelco doesn't have much of an intranet. So that's my news for a Monday evening. :)

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

listening to Stephen Lewis

Stephen Lewis is this year's Massey Lecturer, and I'm just listening to his broadcast on CBC. He is, without a doubt, one of the most passionate and awe-inspiring speakers I've ever heard. His subject matter of course, is heart-wrenchingly difficult to listen to, and you can hear the frustration and desperation in his's almost unbearable. And yet, he remains optimistic that something can and will be done. "I have spent the last four years watching people die" is how he opens his lecture, and never have I felt so much a part of a speech/lecture as I did tonight. His book Race Against Time now tops my holiday gift list, although I know it will leave me devastated and angry. Please...visit the website of the Stephen Lewis Foundation if you somehow manages to be the most horrible and the most beautiful place on the web.

Monday, November 07, 2005

why I love Jack Layton...

Oh just because lol ;) Actually, because of his speech to the Empire Club and that he's the smartest of the bunch right now and he just seems to "know" what he needs to do to make the PCs look like idiots (not that it takes much to do that lol) And yeah, I'm just feeling the need to be political in my amazing journey today. And that's ok.

So a few posts ago I talked about how blogging has taken on this awful tinge where people have turned the whole thing into pathetic whining and self-absorbed ramblings. And now I have examples.....mwahahaha.... and I read an article recently in Salon (I'd post it but it's one of those ones where you have to 'watch a brief ad' in order to read the piece, and I've already subjected readers to one article where registration was required, so just trust me on this...) and while I don't agree with everything it says, what I do agree with is the bit that says something along the lines of "when you're a celebrity the stakes are higher". And I totally agree. If you are famous and there are thousands of people reading your blog, I feel you have a responsibility to - at the very least - spell things correctly!!! See Pamela Anderson's blog for examples (good god if you can afford Louis Vuitton then freaking learn how to SPELL IT!! and sorry, but you're not fooling anyone Pam, with your favourite books). I also have to wonder about Melanie Griffith - what the hell is she on??? So while I think that Joe/Josephine Public is more than welcome to blog away about whatever he/she desires, ignoring all the rules for blog usability, spelling things incorrectly and just ranting in general, I think that anyone with a certified (certifiable?? lol) fan club owes it to their readers to write something a little more thought-provoking than "OMG did you see American Idol, can you believe that?" Celebrities want to be taken seriously, they want respect, and yet, when they post rubbish, it's nearly impossible. I know there are intelligent celebrity blogs out there and I'll find and post some - just wanted to share some of the crappiest examples for now so y'all know what I was on about. :)

Sunday, November 06, 2005

curtains make me happy...

SO happy. Lovely new panels for our sliding door from Pier 1 today, to go with our soon-to-be-new floor, that will be put down tomorrow. It's a whole new room, and very exciting indeed.

This is an interesting article, and one that I can totally get behind: Apparel Buyers Really, Really Like Search I've started using retail websites as the precursor to a shopping trip, actually, and I find it's pretty helpful to see items online first. According to the study, I'm not alone. I do this for kids' stuff as well as my own shopping. And here I thought I was being innovative and original. ;)

And once again, the fabuliscious Lipstick Librarian makes my entire day by offering this: Wanna Come Up and Check Out My Special Collection? Yet another of my fundraising/awareness raising ideas for the library stolen! ;) I actually preferred the library martini bar idea, like the Library Bar in NYC (sadly their website is MIA for some reason) but I'm not sure that dream will ever be realised at my new job. Maybe I'll some day become a consultant offering library makeovers. Oooooh or wouldn't that be a great new reality series, like Extreme Library Makeover! Can't you just SEE the ratings?!? Sure.... ;)

Thursday, November 03, 2005

of spin & sci fi...

One of the most amazing things about my husband is his incredible ability to turn any sort of political discussion into a science fiction analogy. And I'm not being flip, I actually do find it quite fascinating. Take for example our conversation the other evening. I was talking about how I'd heard on the radio (you know which station lol) a program where the host was interviewing a gentleman who was an expert on spin - political spin, media spin, etc. I mentioned to John how I found it really interesting, since people sort of tend to think that spin is a fairly recent manipulation, but it's been going on for decades. The guest on the program had some interesting examples, and some good thoughts on spin (which I won't go into here) so I told John a bit about it. And his response was to tell me about an Isaac Asimov story (or book - I forget which), the gist of which goes like this: some brilliant thinker in a future civilization had his talks analysed by the other characters in the story. So this guy talked and talked and talked and his words were recorded and then analyzed to see what it was he *really* meant. And, long story short, at the end of the day they determined that he had talked all this time - and said absoultely nothing. And I made a comment about how relevant that was (given today's political climate especially) and how I marvelled at this insane ability he seems to have, and why is it that any time we discuss politics he brings up science fiction and he said, "because Elizabeth, good science fiction is political". Hmmm. Because it's based on worlds and civilizations which require order, etc. So again. Hmmm. Interesting stuff and I'm not familiar with the genre really, so it's difficult for me to comment much further, but it just goes to show you, you can't trust anything you read now - and it won't be much different in the future, according to the sci-fi writers...and John. :)

Oh and speaking of books check this out! OCLC's Top 1000! According to their site:

"This list, updated for 2005, contains the "Top 1000" titles owned by OCLC member libraries—the intellectual works that have been judged to be worth owning by the "purchase vote" of libraries around the globe."

So I went through the top 100 - only to find that I'd only read 24. 24% - a poor showing I think, and I'm ashamed to admit it really, considering that two of the books in the top 100 that I've *read* are Calvin & Hobbes and Peanuts. Although in my defence, I've also got War & Peace under my belt, and pretty much all the Shakespeare that's on there. ;) It's a handy reference, no? Bookmark it and work your way through the list! lol. I do take issue with the bible as #1 (but then I would, wouldn't I??) Still think Peanuts should have been can learn a lot more from Charles Schultz... :)

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

movies movies movies!

I had a completely different topic to post about tonight, but two new films caught my eye, and I'm excited! I honestly can't remember the last time I saw a film in the theatre that wasn't aimed at 7-year olds, but I'm going to definitely try to get out to these...if they come to Hamilton...cause sometimes they don't. :( The first - Walk the Line - looks VERY cool indeed! Saw a couple of clips on TV and I'm very impressed, and reviews seem positive too.

Okay, and the second one that caught my eye is Wal-Mart: The High Cost of Low Price and WOOHOO!! Wal-Mart exposed and I couldn't be happier!! And I like that they're sweating....even just a little bit.... ;)

So there you go - Johnny Cash and loadsa cash (weak, I know but I'm tired...) ;)

Tuesday, November 01, 2005


It's hard to believe it's November as of today. Although I guess since last night was Hallowe'en, it's chronologically possible, no? Hallowe'en was great, as usual - a good haul of treats. And because of Karen von Hahn's article, **ack, I just realized you have to register with the Globe & Mail to read this grrr - it's free though, so go on, go ahead... ;) ** I found myself more observant than usual, and I was pleased to see that most of the girls in my neighbourhood didn't fit that example. Whew...since they're all under 12 yikes. On the whole, I like Karen von Hahn - she's not as simpering and whiny as that Leah McLaren, and half the time I just don't understand Heather Mallick...but I digress... Slut culture, as she called it just fits. Perfectly. It's definitely a sad state, and the book she refers to Female Chauvinist Pigs: Women and the Rise of Raunch Culture has been added to my holiday gift list for sure.

Another page from the "it's hard to believe it's..." file is, it's hard to believe it's been 10 years since "THE" referendum that nearly split our country. I still remember that night, I'm sure most Canadians do. Who could possibly forget Jacques Parizeau blaming "money and the ethnic vote" on their loss? Even with my fractured French I got what he said, although I didn't believe it until I heard the English version - and I remember the translator really stumbling over that. Who would have expected that?!? The CBC has a good analysis (as always) in their feature Separation Anxiety. Definitely worth a read.

Oh - and in honour of that historic day I give you the blog quebecois - also definitely worth a read, but for entirely different reasons... :)

Monday, October 31, 2005

be still my heart!

Oh I'm just so excited to learn that two of my favourite bloggers are going to be at the OLA Superconference in February!! Michael from Tame the Web and Jenny, the Shifted Librarian. Wow. I hope to go, but I'm not sure I'll get the green light - I mean so much of Superconference is SO not geared to special/corporate libraries, so I don't know that work would pay. I'd gladly pay my own way (conference geek for sure) but it's at the beginning of February, just as the Christmas bills start coming in at full force. But who knows -even a day would be good. And in case anyone is wondering "who the heck would pay to see a blogger??" bite your collective tongues, and please check out the blogs of these people - they write. And by write, I mean they actually write *content* on their blogs; it's not just daily ramblings, pity parties and froth - these people - and the other bloggers like them - are the ORIGINAL bloggers, and they're using their power for good and not for evil (or stupidity). I don't include myself in their midst, of course - my blog (if you've read this far you'll realize) is mostly personal, observational and humorous (well I think it is) but I also like to think a reader might actually learn something. I like to teach, to educate - not formally, but by osmosis, by exposure, to interesting stuff. When I read some of the blogs out there, I can (almost) see Michael Gorman's point about the blog people. But please DO NOT equate the rubbish blogs with the ones that provide amazing insight and intelligence.

Just a little soapboxing for a Hallowe'en night.... ;)

Sunday, October 30, 2005

metal queen...

I should be writing up my assignment for this week's class - I'm taking Physical Chemistry & Metals Extraction (for my new job - it's beyond confusing) - but I'm not. I'm not going to class tomorrow night, as I must escort a small skeleton and a ninja around the town for trick-or-treating. So the assignment is done thanks to my oh-so-smart husband who has helped me IMMENSELY - hasn't done the assignments for me, I hasten to add, he's just helped me understand the stuff. Not entirely - I'm still probably going to draw several blanks and have a panic attack at the midterm, but I'm hoping that some of it will have sunk in at least.

Caught most of a fantastic concert on the radio yesterday, from Convocation Hall at the U of T - Damien Rice, and you can check out his website for more info and samples of his music. I thought he was incredible. Really soulful voice, almost haunting. Gorgeous lyrics, and just a beautiful sound. Reminds me a bit of someone I can't actually place. Which is probably a good thing, as I am never on the money when it comes to artist comparisons - where people will actually say to me "you're kidding, you think HE sounds like HIM??" But I can't help it, I associate. And if I'm wrong, what of it? It's just my interpretation, and like most art the beauty lies in the interpretation does it not? Always my beef with English class in highschool - "how do YOU know that's what Yeats meant? And just because I get something different out of it, why is it wrong?" Oh that just takes me back lol, and don't I wish I had been that bold when I needed to??

shout out to the mamas!

Two of my friends are pregnant. I'm so excited for both - for one, this will be her 3rd child (I can't even comprehend, lol, but I am very impressed) and for my other friend this will be her 2nd. Of the two I am most concerned for the latter. She is the most wonderful woman and she deserves every happiness, and yet pregnancy has always been so incredibly difficult for her from the beginning. I don't pretend to understand fertility or lack thereof, and she's not always forthcoming with information, which is of course her prerogative. She can tell me as much or as little as she wants, as she needs. She is my friend, and my role in all of this is to be available for her when I'm needed. I can't imagine the heartache, having never experienced either difficulty in becoming pregnant, or any sort of loss during pregnancy. What I want to do is protect her, I think that's my nature. I want her to be safe, I want her baby to be safe. I hold my breath even as I write this, not wanting my words to somehow shake the order of things, as if merely talking about it can make a difference. I will let my breath go only when I am beside her in the hospital next spring holding her brand new, hours old babe. All will be well.

Friday, October 28, 2005

strange days...

I'm not sure what's up with me today, but I'm having words trouble. I'm normally pretty perceptive when it comes to what people mean when they talk, but on several occasions today I've found myself at a complete loss. It's weird. It's like my brain isn't computing...or some such analogy. Anyway, whatever people seem to say, I seem to not know what they're talking about...or something...I'm actually not sure but let's just say I am SO not wavelengthing with people today. Any people. Friends, family, my boss...NOT good to not be wavelengthing with one's boss I'd say lol. Well, at least I'm home - John is out (we're not wavelengthing either) and the boys don't really count - I mean half the time I don't know what they're talking about anyway lol, so it's all good. ;) I'm sure tomorrow will be better...I hope, anyway. And wavelengthing a word?? lol

Thursday, October 27, 2005

who remembers their first time??

Ha, and minds out of the gutter please and thank you! I'm talking about the first time you performed a search using a search engine lol. SearchEngineWatch has a lovely little trip down memory lane where they're asking users of their forum to try to recall the very first search they ever did - for me, I can't remember the actual search terms (although given that I was at CCIW and in Interlibrary Loans at the time it likely had something to do with fish or water or wetlands or something) but what I *do* remember is that I used Mosaic to perform that search! Ah, good times...good times.... :) Oh and sorry for those of you who thought maybe things were finally going to get a little naughty on my blog haha...don't think I'm quite ready to go there yet... ;)

In other news I can't stop eating. Not sure what's going on there lol, but I've been ravenous lately. Driving me a bit nuts, if the truth be known. Well this too shall pass, I'm sure. Perhaps I should just enjoy the ride... ;)

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

peace and loss

Peaceful in here right now - the boys are asleep (well ok they're in bed) and John is out for the evening (due home in an hour or so) so it's just me and my tea for now. I learned today that one of my professors passed away this week. He was only 69, and truly one of the best profs I had during my undergraduate career at McMaster. The man lectured with zeal, passion and nearly always an ascot. :) He was one of a kind. I didn't know him well (History 3H06 was a gigantic lecture hall crammed full of RH fans) but a friend of mine did, and I am sadder for her loss.


And because I'm apparently turning into the biggest CBC groupie in the history of the station lol, I can't seem to go a day without blogging about something exciting that I learned on my way to or from work. Today is no exception, as Errol Nazareth (great name, fantastically smooth voice I could listen to him all day and wow I just had a look at his photo and mmmmm....he's hot!! lol) gave me something to add to my holiday gift list! Once Upon a Time in Wigan is ultra-cool and I'm soooo tempted to just go order it from HMV, but I'll refrain, as I need something on the list to give to John's family. lol. The play itself looks fantastic - interesting concept for sure and the music just rocks!!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

swimming...and running in the rain

I left work a bit early this afternoon in order to catch Charles at swim practice. I got there just in time to see him finish one length, and then the next time it was his turn I watched the whole thing. And he was awesome. Okay...well actually he's not awesome lol. He did a bit of flailing, especially toward the end, but to me, he was incredible. He didn't give up and I could just tell that he was so proud as he pulled himself out of the pool. I caught his eye the first time round and I think he was surprised to see me there - but he gave me a big smile - the 1000-watt Charles smile - and I know he was happy that I was there to see him and take him home when practice was over.

So the rain finally did mostly let up, and so I had absolutely no excuse NOT to go for a run this evening. So I did. And it was pretty good. But I do wonder if I'll ever be able to break out of the 5 & 1 cycle. Margaret tells me there's no need to, that I could run 5 & 1s forever. But in a way I'd really like to get back to my 5km times and solid running. Commitment dear girl...I'll get there, I know it.

Best line I heard today - from "My Name is Earl" (damn I love that show!) "Never underestimate the power of 15 beers, a little enlightenment and the power of Rob Base and DJ EZ Rock" Amen, Earl... ;)


That's how I feel lately - I actually woke up singing that song this morning, so you KNOW water is on my mind! Will the rain ever stop? Yes, I know it's so much worse in other parts of North America (that Wilma really packed a punch) but the rain and the darkness is depressing. At least we gain our hour back this weekend, so I won't be leaving for work in the pitch black...of course I'll be coming home in the pitch black, won't I? Ah, but that's what you get for living in this part of the world, I guess.

And this next bit is for Ann and anyone else who enjoys CBC's Metro Morning. I was thinking a bit about what you said Ann (lol about an inhaler for Andy Barrie) and as much as I enjoy the show, it's really still Toronto radio, isn't it? What we need is the CBC in Hamilton. I know I've recently signed a petition to do just that - bring the CBC to Hamilton. And if you go here you can read a little bit more about the whole idea. And go here to add your name to the list if you think we need the CBC! Once again, as in many things, Hamilton is underrepresented, if not unrepresented. It's definitely time we had the CBC of our very own!

Gosh, I wonder if they'd need someone to run their library.....

Monday, October 24, 2005

musing on musedom...

Yesterday, on the way to pick up my mum to bring her over for supper, I caught part of an interview on CBC 1 with author Francine Prose, discussing her book The Lives of the Muses, and was completely enthralled, not only by her subject matter but also her style, wit and overall presentation. On the whole it was a sobering and fascinating discussion, but one thing that made me laugh right out loud, was her line (and I know I'll get this wrong but it went something like...) "feminism has largely destroyed musedom as a career choice..." Too funny, and as I drove I thought of how my life might have taken a different turn, had that career option been 'assigned' to me during the oh-so-useful exercise of career aptitude testing that went on in highschool. I can honestly see it "oh great, just as I suspected...Teacher, Dolphin Trainer, Firefighter and oh yes, Muse - how fabulous!" lol. Alas, I doubt that I will ever achieve musedom to the height of someone like Elizabeth Siddal or Lee Miller...although I do like to think I inspire John to do great things, even if I'm not Yoko.... :)

Sunday, October 23, 2005

such a bummer....

Okay, so I'm all bummed because the pictures I took at the Rock Hall of Fame didn't turn out. Well, the ones I took inside, anyway. And yes, I know that cameras and recording devices aren't permitted, but the security dude didn't check my bag, (we found it helpful to get all excited and go all fangirly on the guy, so he just didn't ask to see our purses....excellent...)and so I thought well hey, let's give it a try. So I took a couple up in the Tommy exhibit, but alas, no pics were developed. I even looked at the negatives and just blank space where those glorious pictures should have been. No flash = no photos. And I'm sad, because I'm normally not a rebellious museum visitor, but this was IMPORTANT. And had there been a sort of souvenir album of the Tommy stuff, I probably wouldn't have bothered trying to get illicit photos...okay, so no, yeah I would have definitely tried to AT LEAST get a picture of that fringed suit...but nothing. And I suppose it serves me right. lol. But I got two outside, showing the incredible architecture of the place, and then I got a few of the Who stuff at the Cleveland Hard Rock Cafe (Charles wanted a photo of John's bass that is on display there, and have I mentioned how freaking cool my son is?!?) and then there are the requisite shots of me and Carly in the hotel room - at various points in the weekend, with various amounts of rum in us...and DAMN we still look hot!!! ;)

So now of course I'm thinking that the exhibition is on until March...maybe I can get back there...and maybe bring another camera...and use the flash...heh...

sunday morning...

...and it's cold and wet out there in Hamilton today - blech. Still, a nice day to stay in with my coffee and listen to the rain outside, and to the intense drama unfolding in the imaginations of my two kids. They really are quite incredible in their abilities to play games with anywhere between six and eight storylines at any given time. It exhausts me just thinking about it, yet it makes me happy that their creativity seemingly knows no bounds. Still some homework to be forced upon Charles at some point today...but not yet, I think. I'm hoping that this cold that seems to be creeping into my throat, head & chest can be beaten. Lots of lemon tea and rest and zinc lozenges and with any luck I'll fix it nicely. *fingers crossed*

In other more exciting news (well I think it's exciting anyway lol) I just discovered LibraryThing and I am just geek enough to hop up and down with joy!! Wow! Imagine being able to catalogue your entire personal collection of books! Oh my gosh, I think I might need to do this! In my spare time of course... lol and I just have soooooo much of that. Still, it's a project that is not only very very cool, but socially redeeming as well. I like that it's social - with tagging a la and Lookmarks - two sites that I just adore (and rather miss having time for in my new job) I do need to start a new library blog - Jenn was asking me Friday night did I have one yet - and I don't. But I will. Just need to figure the direction of it and what sorts of things I'll blog about. I do need to get on that, don't I? Not right, not having a voice in the company - they must hear from me!! ;)

p.s. I know I still need to blog about my experience at the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame and I'm getting the meantime, this can be explored as a holdover for y'all... :)

Thursday, October 20, 2005

definitely not a sex symbol...

One of the questions I've been asked most frequently about my new job is not a) is the work interesting? or b) what sorts of things are you asked to do? or even c) is the pay good? No, it seems that what most people are interested in is how I am coping in a building full of men. That is what they want to know. "It must be strange working with all those men". Well, given that my last job was totally women only (until jd showed up to save the day - wooo!) I guess it's a little strange to be one of the only women on the engineering floor. So that question isn't quite as bad as "wow, aren't you uncomfortable working with all those men around?" Um...frankly, no. And while I think it's a bizarre question in a way, I started wondering why someone would even think to raise that topic, and I've come to the conclusion that I like men and I feel comfortable in their presence...always have always will. So why? Why is it that a building full of engineers doesn't scare me like it does some of the women who've been asking me about my comfort level. I think there are some obvious reasons - and anyone who's worked in a library or other area where women dominate can relate - men give you the straight goods, just the facts, let's get it out in the open and deal with it so we can move on. Women [and this is not all women of course, I am speaking only for myself from my own experiences] tend to be more manipulative, they can be catty and view other women as their competition. Men don't seem to have the hidden agenda that women do - you know, those women who want to know where you bought your shoes so they can mock you for either paying far too much for them or for being cheap because you didn't pay very much for them at all. In a lot of workplaces where the women outnumber, you just can't win.

So I'm happy in my new surroundings for those reasons, but there is also something else which I've just recently started to understand about myself. Part of my comfort can be attributed to me always having felt like one of the guys. It never occurs to me that I could be anything more than that. And see, I think this is where some of my friends were going when they asked wasn't I uncomfortable with all the men. If you feel like the guys might be checking you out, I can understand how you might feel outnumbered. But, as that never occurs to me lol, I'm good. And this doesn't, of course, mean that I think I'm completely UNattractive, but what I do think is that for the most part the guys at work will accept me and just treat me like one of them. No hidden agenda, nothing at all like that. So there you go. Definitely not a sex symbol. Suits me fine. :)

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

they're baaaaaaack!!

Well yes, ok I'm a little late on this I realise...but the CBC is back!! Hallelujah!! Gosh I missed that bunch, and don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone? [not feeling very original tonight lol] But it's just sooooo nice to drive to and from work with the CBC...I feel the smarts all coming back to me lol.

I am starting to feel the effects of working fulltime. Wow I'm tired, and I know that millions of women work fulltime and raise children but I think that at least I can be allowed one post to vent about it lol. I love my job, it's just fantastic, if a bit crazy at times like it was today. And I love and adore my children and am (of course) committed to them (and hopefully not soon committed by them but you never know lol) but the two are colliding a bit. So I won't complain again, because all parts of my life are good. But I did need to admit that. :)

And speaking of admitting things, John has decided that he's considering a tattoo. I have to say - wow - I was shocked. My conservative husband. But it's cool, and I'm thinking a Cottage 13 gift certificate for Christmas is in order. Woo!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

about me indeed...

I'm always so impressed to see what people have on the "about me" sections of their blogs. I am at a loss, I've never been good at describing myself - always hated the "tell me a little bit about yourself" question at job interviews - ugh. My current job didn't have that question - perhaps that's why they hired me lol. So maybe I need to think long and hard about it, and then I can put up a little bit about me. Maybe once I figure out who I am? Hmmm...

So when I logged on tonight (for the second time - I am a busy little blogging beaver today!) there, under "Blogs of Note" was the Boy Who Heard Music I've not yet spent much time reading Pete's blog/novella, and I should and I will. I've read some of the comments, and I find it fascinating how blogging begets blogging, and as you go through the comments and the profiles, before you know it you're deep into someone else's blog, finding their thoughts and daily musings interesting, and learning from them. Which makes me think that perhaps someone *might* find my blog interesting. Who knows. As of now, there are only two people with the url, so we shall see. It took me awhile to hand out the information, didn't it?? ;) And it's only to people I trust (which is why I don't often comment on blogs, because then your profile and blog are there for everyone to see, and I'm not ready for that quite yet)

So there's something for the "about me" bit - not ready to share my thoughts with the world... hee...

...until the twelfth of never, and that's a long, long time

Two years ago tonight. What was I doing? Watching and waiting as my dad, my hero breathed on his own during his last night ever. I've found myself reliving that night the past few days and the pain and the grief just come in waves. I'm thankful for my solitary job, where my swollen eyes aren't noticed - buncha engineers, what do they know?? ;) hee... But reliving that night, it's unbelievable how the details are so clear in my mind, that all the times are exact and everything down to what the nurses were wearing and how many times we checked on him are still in my head. I know it will get better, it's already better than last year, and next year will be easier, but never ever will the pain go away.

You ask how long I'll love you
I'll tell you true
Until the Twelfth of Never
I'll still be loving you...

[one of the songs my dad used to sing to me at bedtime when I was little]

Sunday, October 16, 2005

From you, I get the story....

I'm just back from Cleveland and the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame & Museum. I thought I would come home to make a fabulously witty and insightful post about how great it was, what fun I had and on and on....and it was...and I did...but I can't yet begin to go into the detail of the effect some of the exhibits had on intense some of the emotions were and how incredible some of the feelings felt. It really was one of the most amazing places I have ever been. Carly and I had SUCH a good time, and defied almost all the rules, like good Who Grrls LOL But I will make a more coherent and insightful entry at a later date...I just need some time to figure it all out and process it into something that I can write about... Soon... I certainly can't leave it too long, it's too current and too close to the needs to come out but I think it needs a day or so yet...

I will say now though, that our hotel was great, the portable DVD player was beyond fun (so much Roger so little time LOL); that my wonderful friend Carly is one of the most amazing women I have ever had the privilege to know, and one of the greatest friends I could ever hope to have. Just absolutely an incredibly fun time...yet the stuff from the Hall of Fame will have to wait until I'm 1) less tired and 2) less emotional. I just was not prepared for the range of emotions, so I will approach it in another post...

Thursday, October 06, 2005


A mod for your pocket?? Haha, no, but this is just about as cool. Jenn from the BRAIN_blog *gets all nostalgic* featured the PocketMod recently, and although I haven't tried it out yet, I have to say it's extremely intriguing! Highly low-tech of course, but that just adds to its retro-chic charm. I will have to create one and check back in with the entire scoop at a later date...

So what else is new? Not much, but I'm off to yoga tonight, which excites me as it always does. And yeah, feeling a little stiff after my run the other night, so a gooooooood stretch is in order - definitely!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

run, run, run....

I'm back running! :) And yes, I guess I was before now, but this time was fantastic - still my little run 5min walk 1min series, but I felt the best I'd felt in a very long time so it was really great! Now that I'm no longer doing the stair climb to work, I need to get back in the habit of running in the evenings. It's dark though - and yes fellow bloggers, I know it's not a good idea for women to run at night - but how about I keep to the main streets where it's well-populated and very well-lit? I'm never nervous running in the evenings actually - maybe it's cos I can run SO fast no one could catch me hahaha! Okay, yeah, that's got to be it...heh...

In other blogging news, this article caught my eye at work today. A sort of primer on blogging, which is timely I think, as all sorts of famous people like this guy are jumping into the blogosphere! It's cool to see Pete giving blogging a go - he's just a cutting edge kind of guy - although I would argue that the blog isn't *quite* the edge it was last year BUT it's still neat to see him connect with others in this type of forum. Blog on, Pete!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

sittin' on the dock...

...of Laura's cottage! Ah, yes that's what I did pretty much all weekend. Nothing like a girls' weekend to give you a fresh perspective on life, family and all the important things. We had a lovely time as we always do when we're together. There are very few people that I can spend considerable amounts of time with and still be wanting more.

Strange emotions though, and I think just due to the time of year - leaves start falling, changes in the weather and I'm taken right back to fall 2003, the worst few months of my life. Just some spontaneous tears, not even sure where they came from. It shocked me, there is usually a trigger, something that I can point to and say "that set me off". This time I'm not sure - and I probably could figure it out eventually, but I honestly think I can accept the fact that there will always be something to trigger the flood of emotions & memories. And figuring it out - it's not like it would help to know - and it's not like I could stop it even if I wanted to. The emotions are good, they're healing and I welcome them.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

the librarian of steel....or....steelizabeth!

haha - well not exactly but wow, new job rocks! Of all places for e-L to end up, it's so funny it happened to be Stelco. I'm not sure how much I can say about this, but the fact that my dad worked there for 35 years and then for me to wind up there...well there's something there, I really think there is. The place is great though, in spite of the somewhat precarious position the grand old company finds itself in right now. The job is fun and BUSY which is so nice. Lots to do and lots to learn. Fulltime work takes some getting used to, no? I'm tired all the time lol - but I'm getting the hang of it. Just takes organisation and planning. Neither of which I'm very good at - but it's coming. The last real fulltime job I had was before Charles was born - so it's been over 7 years. Wow. Anyway, not that anyone is reading this, but I'm going to try to keep more up to date - for my own sanity if only...

Monday, July 18, 2005

go figure...

One of the things that is frustrating about searching for information on the elimination of the reference desk in academic libraries is that the phrase “reference desk” is overused in a big way – and not necessarily within the library realm. Take the following for example:

The Educator’s Reference Desk – Facts Subject Index

Martindale’s ‘The Reference Desk’

Now I’m not saying that these particular sites are not worthy of the title “reference desk”, nor am I disputing their value – I’m sure they are all well researched sites with good information. In fact I know for certain that a couple of them definitely are. What I am concerned about is that if every information site on the web is calling itself a reference desk of some sort, do users now associate the library’s physical reference desk with a website of this type? Are the library staff who sit at the reference desk now considered to be nothing more than quickie providers of quickie facts? (I hesitate to use the word quickie here, but it’s just so darned appropriate) What I mean to say is that when referring a student to library reference staff and directing them to the reference desk, are we doing ourselves a disservice now that reference desks exist virtually everywhere? While I understand the purveyors of these websites likely want to give their collections of information validity, draw on the long-standing tradition of service the reference desk suggests and perhaps even provide something familiar, comfortable and recognizable to their users (“oh yeah, the reference desk is where I used to go in the library when I needed help!” *user getting all nostalgic*) I worry that those of us who sit at this imposing structure might be mistaken for one of these reference desk websites. (and I mean this figuratively of course) But we are more than providers of quick facts and figures – more than the proverbial “ready-reference” stuff - the lists of job banks, access to the census tracts, the city directory and how to create a bibliography. Now, I certainly don’t mean to say that ALL the questions that come across my library’s reference desk are so banal and quickie. But a good number of them are. And the other problem is that if users think that’s all we’re good for, then that is all they will ask! If reference desk = quick information then what of the students who have detailed questions? Do they worry that their questions are out of place at the reference desk? Is this why they say, “I’m sorry to bother you...” when they have a question that CAN’T be answered by handing them a sheet of paper with the answer on it?

And while we’re on the subject, the other mistake users might make is to assume that we, like their ref desk website, have the information at a click. For instance, want to know a bit about physics? Click here and learn! What about when you head to the actual reference desk to ask the actual librarian? Well they might ask you a few questions first, to determine what it is you really need. Then they will probably take you to a computer to look for the information – but all this takes time! Isn’t this the REFERENCE DESK for goodness sake? Shouldn’t you people just be able to click something to get my information right NOW?!? Of course, I’m exaggerating. Or am I? I don’t think it’s that much of a stretch to equate reference desk with immediate information these days. This is nothing new of course; we all recognize the fascination with the immediateness of the net and the attention spans of its users. But labelling a site “the reference desk” merely adds to this myth that it’s all on the web, and it’s all right there right now. The reference desk, once the domain of the library and the reference librarians who staffed it, has been adopted and used by other organizations. It has been tricked out with flashy colours, ads, and collections of “cool” links. Yes, dear friends, the reference desk has been pimped.

So. My point. And yes, I do have one, and I’m getting to it...eventually... haha! My original task was to research the elimination of the reference desk in academic libraries. Some libraries have indeed done away with the desk itself, and librarians roam the stacks/computer areas, etc. in search of students in trouble with their research or needing help finding stuff on shelves, like so many information superheroes (which is a whole other blog entry. I actually envision the librarian signal, like the bat signal....ooooh the mind reels...) So in doing this research I not only consulted the literature but I cruised the web as well, looking for nuggets. This is how I came across the use of the reference desk title on any number of websites. After sifting through these and checking out several to determine what exactly they mean when they call themselves a reference desk, I’m more convinced than ever that the library reference desk as we know it needs to go. It also needs another name, a name that connotes what we do and how we do it. The reference desk image has been sold out; the term has become meaningless. So what do I propose? The immediate removal of the reference desk – to be of course replaced by a slick looking reference “bar” or some other home base for reference staff. I also encourage the renaming of this reference home base – we dare not call it the desk – with something more descriptive, something more to do with information but not to do with “help” – help is another one of those overused words that can mean anything or nothing.

The concept of the reference desk has changed, thanks to overuse on the web. It now refers to “a website with lots of information” or “a website that has a list of websites that might be useful to you as a starting point for information about your particular topic”. We deserve something better!

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

good heavens...

...nearly a month since I've posted. Not that anyone reads this to complain, but I guess I'm always amazed at how quickly the time goes.

So today is day number one with my new glasses. Yes, I went to see the eye doctor yesterday - a very nice man whom I saw only twice before in my life. Once as a child (I have only vague recollection) and once as a first-year university student with brutal headaches, convinced that I needed glasses for reading at the very least. But no, I did not, and the likeable dr. told me to come back when I was 40, as I'd need glasses for reading. So, after this lengthy introduction...imagine my surprise when Max and I trooped in to his office yesterday and he informed me that my need for glasses was a 24/7 kind of thing. Well, I guess not 24 (as they are not needed while sleeping), but you get the drift. Horrors. Me of the perfect vision, now quite farsighted. After the shock wore off...or rather lessened...I spent this morning in the lovely Westdale Optical Boutique trying on frames. Fell in love with the $550.00 pair (just my luck...I do that with shoes too...go figure) however, did end up purchasing a rather smart looking pair for considerably less. I'm happy, although they bug me yet. And I'm not impressed with the fogging action while having my tea this evening. But I'm sure I shall get used to them in time. And here they are! Kinda funky, yet practical - like me. hehe....

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

too much, the locke st. bus...

observations from this afternoon's trip downtown (let's go downtown...downtown tonight...)

mullets observed = 3 (all female wtf?)
muumuus observed = 1
fashion train wrecks = countless! I had originally put "fashion faux pas" but that suggests - oh I don't know - white shoes after Labour Day or some such innocuous error - some of this stuff was heinous. Honestly! People of Hamilton! A once over in the mirror can do wonders!

Money's worth? Oooooh, definitely!

Monday, May 23, 2005

Ouch - me 'ead....

Migraine day today. Grrr. I only get about one per year (lucky I know, not complaining) but I had soooooooo much to do and it just knocked me out. So all the reading, etc. I wanted to do for my essay - gone out the window. *sigh* The head still hurts - although not as bad - but I so don't want to read anything just yet.

One good thing though - I think I figured out how to post pics on here - so - ta da!!

Oh, they're just the coolest little dudes EVER!!

Thursday, May 19, 2005


Ooooooh this is the BEST. Everyone needs to see this. The MEATRIX The chicken at the end rocks. But the message is a good one. If you eat meat, at the very least don't eat industrialized factory farmed meat. It's just bad all around.

And here's the Canadian version.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

The funniest site on the web

Ah, never let me down.... Vegan Cooking with Ted Nugent...awesome laugh for a Wednesday!

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Quad is good for walking...

...which really surprised me. I guess I've always listened to it in more of a static state - as in not moving. So when I put the first disc in my CD player for my commute to work, I was pleasantly surprised that it just - well - fit. Disc 2 was almost better. My walk is only about 25 minutes - albeit vertical - but that's another entry - so it's not like I get through an entire CD. Sometimes I wish I could. There are very few occasions anymore when I have the time to listen to a new disc from start to finish in one go.

Anyway, walking to Quad = bliss.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Tuesdays with Maxwell....

Max and I had an adventure out to McMaster today - he's so much fun. Hit the bookstore and the library, then over to the student centre for a snack as it wouldn't be an adventure with Max unless there was a snack involved. He treated everyone in the centre to a rousing rendition of "down by the bay" while he ate his cookies. So much fun to be 4.

conversation with Max when we got home:

me: what are you drawing, Max?
max: snowmen!
me (looking at his picture): awwww they're cute!
max: they're zombie snowmen!

So I'm thinking it's only a matter of time before his stuffed tiger comes to life...

Thursday, April 28, 2005

If you've got leavin' on your mind...tell me now...get it over...

It's amazing how hurtin' music can just make you feel so much better - you'd think it would be the opposite, wouldn't you? But it's not. Nothing better than some Patsy Cline when yer blue. Yes, I've been a little blue this week - nothing major of course, just kind of down. Perking up as the weekend approaches, naturally, and it's going to be a good one I think. Mia's birthday Saturday night (yeah, we're going out to a club - wtf do you wear to a club these days?!? *sigh*) & then John's family for dinner on Sunday. Busy, busy - stocking up on wine too... hee...

Monday, April 25, 2005

The Unwatchable Bridget Jones

Unwatchable is right. Bridget Jones the Edge of Reason, we turned it off after about 40 minutes. I honestly don't think I've ever done that before - okay yeah, with Armageddon, we fastforwarded through a LOT, but didn't turn it off. Saw the end, blah blah blah, end of story. I was saddened by Bridget Jones. It was basically the same movie as the original, just this time she's all excited that she's got a boyfriend, and to my mind has set the women's movement back around 800 years by mincing about, agonizing over the relationship with her "does he really want to be with me?" drivel. Ugh. It was embarrassing and unflattering and offensive. And that's all I shall ever say on the subject, because frankly, it's not worth the time and energy.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend

Wow. Just wow. Listening to the new Garbage CD "Bleed Like Me" today and am loving it. Rolling Stone has an interview, and here is another. Shirley Manson is just amazing, incredible, and why oh why can't I be Shirley Manson?!?

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

I loved you for a long, long time I know this love is real...

I was having a good day to start with, and this - well this just topped it off! Leonard Cohen for Nobel prize for literature - the mind reels. And, as I look out the windows here at work to the wind and the rain, today is the perfect type of day to celebrate with some music by the man himself. Shame I don't have any with me here at work...

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Gather your wits and hold on fast, your mind must learn to roam...

Fitting, I think, that I should start publishing this blog with lines from Tommy. On Monday, one of my fave bloggers, The Lipstick Librarian, made reference to a previous post where she discusses some of her film influences. How tickled was I to read the comment at the very bottom of that post - how I missed these I have no idea! But then, I am a recent arrival to the world of blogging. Until now I have been a casual reader of blogs, but not a blogger of blogs. What has prompted me you ask? Bloglines - they just make it so darned easy to get those feeds! And reading inspiring blogs and news feeds creates inspiration. And, ah, well I've been the "guest blogger" for the BRAIN_blog since the beginning of April and I am loving it. An audience? For the things that I find interesting? Oh yeah....I'm so in!
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